The birth to 3 ladies came and it was all positive news. They loved how she rolls and scoots and pushes herself up to sit from laying down. They called her "graceful" which is a twist seeing as how her daddy is a clutz and I suffered from being a "twinkle toes" playing softball but being a bit clutzy for ballet classes. They showed us a few things we can do to get her to sit up on her knees and start to crawl and we will most DEFINITELY put them into motion so that we have big strides in her crawling when they check back with us in a month. They seemed as positive as us that she's waving and clapping and pulling herself to her feet, so in that regard, I was THRILLED! They also remarked on her good natured personality, which may or may not be related to her Partial Trisomy 21. (Many people attribute a good attitude with people who have Down's Syndrome, so maybe that is one of the blessings we have been given. Don't get me wrong, she does get a " 'tude" every now and then, but she is a smiley, happy, laid back little girl who can make any day a little brighter with a single squeal!)Anyways, we also had her 9 month appointment. She is right on track from her last visit. She is keeping the same growth curve so it's a small victory considering the first month she was slow to gain weight and it left us a bit concerned. But hey, we do snacks and veggies and fruits and proteins now and..... well...... have you SEEN her thighs? Puts new meaning to the phrase "thunder thighs". We are going to try a new eye drop for her crusty eyes. (Oh joy, another 2 weeks of holding her down, pinning her arms down and forcing her eyelids open to give her drops. that was a blast over our trip back home for Christmas.) The doctor was very happy with her progress and sees no real reason for concern. Why borrow trouble before we have any reason to truly worry? She is on track and granted she may fall behind, we will take every milestone and gain in strength and intellect for what it is.... a miracle. She is our little miracle baby. She's unique in her DNA and I truly believe she is here for a reason. She was here to heal my heart after the loss of our first pregnancy and hopefully one day we will be strong enough to try for a second baby. We understand there is the chance we can end up giving birth to a child with the same genetic anomaly as Kaelyn, but there's a chance we might not. I have done so much soul searching since we found out Kaelyn's diagnosis that I truly believe God doesn't give us more than we can handle and we are each made in his image. Every child is a blessing from God. This doesn't mean we will be one of those families that has 19 kids because a large family is a blessing. Adoption is expensive and we dont want Kaelyn to grow up an only child. We always saw our family as 2 or 3 children, us as Mom and Dad, and a dog to round out the family. I know there always the option of fostering, but I'm not sure I am made to deal with some of the extra emotional and physical needs of foster children. (Please don't think of me as shallow or selfish, but not knowing for certain the impact that partial trisomy 21 is going to have on Kaelyn, I'm not even certain someone would let us foster a child in the hopes of adopting. Would they?)
Anyways, last night while giving Kaelyn her bath, I told Jeremy that Kaelyn's doctor asked what we though of having more children and in the course of conversation, i think we may have come to an agreement to try, and hope that there is another child for us in the future. We know that there will possibly me miscarriages, and pain and suffering in the process, but Kaelyn was such a gift to us, can we not try? Maybe my mind is just wandering in circles.
I've got a rather happy little girl in her walker, munching on cheerios and making new "huh huh huh" sounds. I think she was mimicking Odin when he pants hard, but who knows. its new and exciting and ADORABLE! She may not be able to say "mama" yet, but her smiles are enough for me!
I better go get ready to meet Jeremy at work to swap the baby. I still have to brush my hair and find my work outfit. (Gotta love panicking and the last minute, scrambling to find khaki/brown pants and a polo. ugh)
Anyways, hopefully i can post a picture or two. She's such a DOLL! My big girl! (i can't believe she's over 9 months old now! CrAzY!!!)
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